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I dont know how to begin..
Well yesterday was my birthday and it was almost perfect..
Sad thing is that my grandad died a week ago and it has been so hard.. I still cant believe that he is gone..
Birthday... well dont want to speak about it.. bcz in this moment i can't...
But there is another thing because it was almost perfect.. and the fact that i couldnt sleep tonight and that I'm crying now in my bed... I have really needed this sleep.. bcz i have to wake like in 45 minutes to study and it is 6:45 am ... so i've realized that i have to stop loving him.. i have to move on.. bcz im the one who is suffiring.. first he is ignoring me, second I asked him month ago to do something on my birthday.. i know that it is different situation now.. but he couldnt even be here... he sent me a msg first at 00:01.. and i thought it is enough but it wasnt.. i really need him.. and I know its my fault.. but he doesnt care.. he has moved on.. replaced me.. forgotten about me.. and I'm still here crying.. and I cant change a thing..
This post is short bcz I'm not in mood for writing something more... and this post doesnt contain any photo bcz it was written on my phone... but if it had any photo it would have a photo of bleeding heart...